2020: A year of losses and gains
As 2020 draws to a close and the world reflects on this extraordinary, crazy year we are about to leave behind, it is tempting to focus only on the negatives and losses we suffered.
And we have lost so much: our health, our incomes, our families, our friends, our relationships, our freedoms. It has been an incredibly tough year for most of us. The devastating impact of Covid-19 on the world will be felt for decades to come.
We are exhausted. We can feel it in our bones. We want to reset and start afresh.
But before we hit the red button for 2021 to start, let's pause for a moment and reflect on the gains we made, too. Let me start with myself.
The year we gained hope
State capture inquiry-linked arrests made big headlines in 2020 – a powerful indication of just how desperate corruption-exhausted South Africans are for genuine accountability.
But, while these cases will undoubtedly be pivotal to restoring public hope in the country’s law enforcement, they are not what the National Prosecuting Authority should be most proud of this year.
The year we lost our economy
While the worst projections of the impact of Covid-19 in South Africa haven't come to light, it has had a tremendous impact on our economy. With the second wave now underway – and another on the way – things are not looking good financially for the country.
The year I gained my purpose
We must remember the lesson from the first wave: that as the Covid-19 pandemic rages on, what is more important is that we have each other. That is what will always make the difference. That is the source of hope.
The year I lost my father and my grandmother
Losing my father to Covid-19 and his mom a few weeks later took away so much and aged me by a decade within a few weeks.
If you were his daughter, and I was his only daughter, he would have loved you so much that you'd have no choice but to love yourself too.
The year I gained my voice and took back my power
When I woke up in time to see the first rays of the sun paint the sky pink over Table Bay on 1 January 2020, I had high hopes for the year. I would go meet my newborn nephew in Mexico, I would hike often and yes, also lose 5kg by the time my birthday rolled around in August.
Little did I know that this was the year I would find my voice, help others find theirs, and that we would become the voice for the voiceless.
The year we lost our senses in dealing with farm murders
The year 2020 was probably the best of times and the worst of times, with apologies to Charles Dickens.
The best was how well agriculture performed, despite massive challenges. The worst is that farmers and farm workers are still not safe in their homes and on the job in a sector that is strategically of cardinal importance to the economy and for food security.
The year we lost our marbles and gained common sense
We as a country, as the world, have experienced a profound, collective trauma this year. As we knuckle down into our daily lives, I think we forget that disruption at the level we felt in 2020, will have a long-lasting effect on our national and individual psyches.
The year I lost my friends
At first, I thrived in having time alone. Time to focus on the helter-skelter of the news superhighway. Time to breathe and enjoy my interests, hobbies and odd obsessions when I did off-ramp from the news highway.
I thought I was navigating life under lockdown as seamlessly as Diego Maradona slalomed through England's defence at the 1986 World Cup.
But, deep-down, I knew it wasn't sustainable, healthy or good.
The year sport gained its voice
A prominent narrative this year has been the inspiring awakening and fight for social equality in the form of the Black Lives Matter movement.
The social movement has quite literally reverberated across the globe in the form of marches against systemic oppression and historical discrimination.
But also it is a reminder in how far we still have to go to change the mind set of many if we are to build an inclusive society for all.
The year I lost my freedom
For a large part of the last few months, we have been asked to embrace our "new normal". I don’t think normal is the word, not by any stretch of the imagination.
But we have been asked to, and for periods of the various lockdown levels, been forced to give up freedoms which many of us took for granted.
The year I gained my new business
Kintsugi is the Japanese art of putting back together broken pottery pieces with gold bonding. It’s an art form that resurrects broken ceramic pottery into beautiful art works — Kintsugi (golden joinery) is built on the idea that in embracing flaws and imperfections, you can create a more beautiful piece of art.
This is the perspective through which I chose to view my 2020 – that through a process of artfully putting together the broken pieces left by the events of 2020, I will end up with a more beautiful piece.
The year I lost my innocence
The day I heard about the brutal way she died, I had knots in my stomach that took days to loosen up. My body went cold, and I struggled to comprehend how any human would have the audacity to kill a woman who was heavily pregnant.
The year I gained my resilience
I remember staring at the intense blue of the sky in the early days of Level 5. I sat on the dead log outside our door and wept. If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound? If you become a parent in a pandemic but no one is around…
The year of the loss of sport, perspective and appreciation
The power of sport was seen in 2019 but, in 2020, came perspective. Live competition - on television and at stadiums - has been missed this year, but more pressing matters of life and death have been sobering. Still, the absence of sport has come at its own cost.
The year of the vaccine
With the onset of the Covid-19 pandemic, vaccines have been successfully produced some 11 months after the virus was first detected - a process which would normally take up to a decade or two.
The year I lost my health and my job
It happened within the space of weeks - first my health, then my job.
I remember sitting in a hard and uncomfortable seat at a Cape Town hospital, making awkward small talk with the healthcare worker preparing to poke around in my nose with a nasal swab.
I wasn't particularly afraid of what the results would be - I had done everything right, like covering my face from almost between my eyes all the way to my chin and sanitising even after washing my hands. I was practically the poster child for being careful in the time of coronavirus. I would be fine, right?
Wrong.
The year I gained my future
There are two sides to every reality. The left and the right; the rich and the poor; the past and the future; the angry – and the awakened. These are the forces that mould us and evolve us. They exist in opposites and they function in parallel. They are necessary.
And then, there are choices. The things we say, we do and we decide upon. Forces and choices work together, but they are not the same – and it’s time we knew the difference.
The year I 'lost' my child
For most of the day ahead of lockdown, my child agonised over where she was going to spend that time: with me or with her grandfather who lived on his own after losing his wife three years ago to cancer.
She chose her grandfather. I was a little heartbroken, but consoled myself by saying it will only be 21 days and besides I worked in a newsroom. We were working flat out, with barely any time to eat.
21 days turned into months and my child turned into an adult.
The year I finally gained work-life balance
By opening up our homes to our workplaces due to the Covid-19 pandemic, we may have realised the opportunity to finally achieve the perfect balance between home and work without any of those boundaries that we set up so long ago, believing they achieved sought-after productivity and powerful delivery.
The year I found my sense of hope and purpose
Over the years, I have struggled with my role as a white entrepreneur during apartheid. I was never actively involved in the struggle, something that I have pondered over for years, and not without shame.
I can only put it down to fear. Instead of facing the regime head-on, I took the less hazardous route of challenging the status quo through how I managed my businesses.
Until this year.
Editor: Adriaan Basson
Compiled by: Vanessa Banton
Production: Alet Law
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